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what is "Northwest Nexus"?  someone who is affiliated with nwp401k.com, using the ISP Northwest Nexus, looks at my blog almost daily and numerous times per day.  i don't mind that anyone looks at my blog, but who is this?
i am assuming i know the person cos they are in seattle.
send me a message so i know who you are, please.
i like that you're reading my blog, but i'd just like to know who you are...

the reason that the title of this blog is in caps cos i am doing the master cleanse, and i am STARVING!
i could eat ANYTHING right now, but then i think of drying off my hands yesterday, and seeing cellulite ON MY FOREARM and think to myself, "you need to fucking lose weight, remember?"
i know that i am going to be happy with the results of this, and that i just have to get through these first few days.
i'll be logging my progress here.

also, this not eating thing has made me realize that the commercials on the TV are for food, well, at least 90% of them.
WTF?!  and we wonder why we're fat as americans.

also, this: http://www.najle.com/idaft/

i have recently decided to make most of my posts "neighborhood only" if they are concerning my feelings or people in my life.  this not to deny anyone access to what i think because, when prompted, i would gladly tell you.  i think, though, when people read about themselves, they are prone to read into it more negatively than it is meant, which is face value.

so, basically, this choice was made in order to avoid any hurt feelings or potential insulting.

if you enjoy reading my blog, and you are not my "neighbor", you will have to sign up for vox [but not have to post anything ever] and join my neighborhood.
it's not hard, but it is another password to remember, but look at it this way: as a member, you get to comment! yay!

ok. goodnight.

i guess that i'm just not done being pissed off.
i'm pissed that i'm being blamed that someone's email got broken into.
i can understand that it sucks when shit like that happens, but why am i the first to blame?  why aren't viruses or website glitches getting blamed first?

this girl that is [falsely] accusing me of this shit has blamed me for something similar in the recent past; she accused me, before she even met me or knew anything about me, of deleting her from josh's myspace page. [why would i do that?] 
this is where this whole thing started.  she's been vilifying me since the beginning of summer!

if you read my blog about my last week, check it again cos i got a pretty interesting comment.
someone called "LawGrrrl" decided to throw in her 2 cents, and considering that the girl, C****** S******, that had the police contact me last week, works in a law office as a receptionist, 'm pretty sure it's her.

it's either that or her friends are googling my name, which makes me a little uncomfortable.  i get that when i have information on the interweb that people are gonna find it, and that's fine.  i can't help but wonder why if she and i have been advised to not speak to or contact one another, in any way, why either her or her friends are getting up in my internet grill.

considering that i have done NOTHING even remotely stalkerish toward her, and now, either she or her friends are commenting on my blog, i'm kinda feeling a little stalked, myself...

thoughts?

a few friends and i threw caution to the wind and went on a "ghost tour" of pike place market this past friday.
i put ghost tour in quotes because there are no ghosts.
coming from the east coast and having lived in boston, i can appreciate a city/region rich in haunted history.
in Salem, MA, halloween time or not, they have some sort of tour or haunted house events happening, but of course october and halloween, in particular, they went all out.  although, it had the tendency to be cheesy, you'd always get a shiver knowing that the witch trials happened there, and its history was just chilling.

now, we turn to seattle, who was born a little over a hundred years ago.  seattle has its own native american history, but i feel like seattle is just too new to be haunted.  i mean, if i were a ghost, i wouldn't want to haunt seattle...

all in all, don't waste 15 of your hard-earned dollars at the "ghost tour of the market".

so, at this current time, i need $8,048 to pay what i owe the UW.
i spoke to a financial aid counselor who told me that my case was going to be reviewed tomorrow, & a decision would be made by friday to see if i am awarded aid. i have a good feeling, but i still could not be awarded.

in the event that i am, i will not be enough to lift my registration block. i need to lift my registration block by next tuesday, so that i am enrolled full-time cos i need financial aid to pay what is past due. so i am pretty much in a catch 22: if i am awarded aid, it won't be enough cos to lift the block, & i won't be able to register for the japanese class that i am taking, which would bring me to full-time.

basically, i may have to beg student fiscal services to lift my registration block, so that financial aid can pay them the rest, but there is no telling if they will do that. [i have a feeling they won't.]

so basically, i need $2600 by next tuesda, not to mention that i am 2 months behind on rent. [oy!]
honestly, i am completely optimistic about this working out cos things usually do for me, but sometimes i [and my family] have to take a route that is undesirable and more difficult.

isn't there anyone willing sponsor my education other than a private loan lender, that wouldn't give me a loan anyway cos my credit is so bad?

why can't jay-z write me a check for $8000? it would be like asking me for a quarter.

also, why can't money fall from the sky? cameras do... :P

well, is it?!

this article is absolutely spot on!

**This is a blog & a bulletin that I posted on my Myspace page. I, also posted this as a "note" on Facebook, as well.

what's the deal?
Adam and Travis lived!
what about the un-famous people that died in that tragic accident!

i understand that they were in critical condition, but they have been guaranteed a full recovery. and yes, it is in no way awesome to have 2nd & 3rd degree burns, but no one is making anywhere NEAR as big of a deal about the lives lost.

i mean, they are having benefits and all proceeds are going to the families of the deceased AND DJ AM and Travis Barker! uh....WHAT?! really? REALLY?!

if i am not mistaken, they have mad loot, and if they aren't "rich-rich", then they CERTAINLY have A LOT more money than the family of the pilot, etc, right?

i am fully aware that many of you reading this are gonna be mad cos adam is your friend, & y'all DJ together and whatnot, but now that they are out of the woods, for the most part, don't you think that having that "TRV$ DJ-AM In Our Prayers" should be taken down & appreciation for the lives lost should be a bit more expressed?

**i realize that Dim Mak isn't going to like that i wrote this, which is why i didn't post this on the Dim Mak blog, and i may even get emails or text messages telling me that i am "irrelevant" or "inappropriate", like last time i wasn't a full AM/MSTRKFT supporter.

i am fully prepared to be removed as a Dim Mak blog contributor, as a result of me expressing my opinion.

w'evs. do what you feel.**

as a result, it would appear that Mr. Goldstein [AM] put this up on Facebook as a response:

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Paris Hilton says she and sister Nicky have been texting longtime pal DJ AM since his tragic Learjet crash.

"I love him," she said Tuesday on Ryan Seacrest's KIIS-FM radio show.

As for his recovery process, "We didn't talk about that," Hilton said. "I just said, 'I wish you the best.'" But she said the DJ, whose real name is Adam Goldstein, did say "how scary" the crash was and that "he's just so lucky to be alive."

Since his release, she said Goldstein is in good spirits. (On Monday, he attended a memorial service in Los Angeles for Chris "Lil' Chris" Baker, who died in the crash.)

"With all the love and support coming in, it really means a lot," Hilton said of her friend. "He's such a good person. I feel like God really did save him."

Hilton - who briefly dated Travis Barker but has not spoken to him since the crash - said she was on a plane herself when she first heard the devastating news.

"I was ... just landing in from Milan. I was sitting with my manager, and he showed me the phone. I couldn't believe it," she said. "It's so scary."

Sometimes, Hilton said she has flown "in that type of plane, but now I will never go in one again. You never know what can happen!"

ummmm...really? REALLY?!  telling me that paris believes in god, & that, surprisingly, she can form a comprehensible sentence, just makes me feel even less sympathy.

OH! this is the kicker! remember that fucking LAME band Crazy Town?  well, AM was in that stupid band. they had that RIDICULOUS song called "Butterfly".  i believe the words go something like:
'come mi lady
come, come mi lady
you're my butterfly
sugar
baby'

hahahahaha!  that song and band SUCKED soooo much! this makes me just straight up HATE his ass!

8/13/08

in high school, my friend, neal, stole this bowling ball from my front yard. [the family has an interesting style, to the say the least.]  the other night, he send me this picture message to my phone.  he took it when he was back in rochester.
i guess his parents kept it around their garage for 12 years. 
funny stuff.