5 posts tagged “dudes”
i haven't written here in a minute, son!
i have been quite busy being on break from school and having and awesome time with J, who has in this past month become my boyfriend. it's quite weird to say, but feels good at the same time. yay!
i have also been blogging a bit over at DIM MAK, but i had to take a break from that for a bit cos they had a conniption about a post i wrote about MSTRKRFT. i said that no one cared about them anymore cos, well, they don't...ha!
evidently, that very week i wrote that, DIM MAK signed them onto their label - lucky me!
they emailed me a very nice email, but i guess they also emailed sarah. she texted me to tell me i need to change the post cos they were emailing her that 'her friend was writing about irrelevant shit'. irrelevant?!
i can't think of anything more irrelevant than DJ AM taking pictures of bottles of red bull or him in new zealand watching the lakers game and posting the pictures. i put up a picture of my friend and had, "go celtics!" as the subject.
i guess they considered that irrelevant, too, cos they deleted my MSTRKRFT post & the go celtics post.
evidently, i have not made enough of a name for myself to talk about not liking a band that no one new was on DIM MAK. sarah stood up for me, so i now i have the "freedom to blog", so i will just keep talking shit about movies and talking about my friends' bands, and hopefully, they don't delete anything else...
oh, & i have a new post up about my friends' band, Romance. go check it out: http://dimmakers.blogspot.com/2008/06/seattle-sensations-romance-rocks-king.html & don't forget to comment on it, if you like it, cos i would be nice for them to see that some people don't find me "irrelevant". :)
ooooh, this is a good one!
when i was 21, i had a very serious boyfriend, mark, in whom i had lost interest. a boy that i had a secret crush on, andy, turned out to have a crush on me, too, so one night we went out for drinks. he drove me home, and as i was exiting his car, we kissed. ok- we made out!
i went up to my apartment, and mark had been waiting for me, but had just left cos he had been waiting for hours. the next day, the guilt ate away at me all day, and by the afternoon, i had to tell him.
we broke up, not cos i cheated, but because the fact that i was even attracted to someone enough to do anything physical must mean that our relationship was not in a good state. also, i was leaving in 2 months for seattle. [this was supposed to only be for 6 months, and i would return to boston; this did not happen, as i am in seattle still, 6 years later.]
we would talk about what happened with andy during the few months i had left in boston, and even after i moved here, and he always said, "you cheated on me!". i wasn't sure how much i agreed that i had actually cheated. is kissing someone and telling your s/o, within 12 hours, cheating? doesn't cheating involve a high-level of dishonesty, and perhaps, sneaking around? are there many levels of cheating and making out is just one of the first levels? or is it considered cheating just having a crush on someone?
i have honestly felt just as shitty, as if he'd cheated, when i found out a different man i loved, many years later, here in seattle, had been lying to me the entire time we were together. he wasn't lying about anything too serious, but the fact that he had a pathological web of lies that he had to keep track of made me feel as though i was betrayed beyond belief. although he never actually "cheated", he may as well have, as my ability to trust (him) was gone.
so, when i give men, that i may potentially date, my email address, it seems that they instantly find me on myspace, which will inevitably lead to this blog.
i got a second email from the boy, and it looks as though he wasn't be honest with me about how serious he thought it was getting with the other person.
